Life Is A Miracle

The feeling of doing the same thing for the second time is both interesting and also exciting (to my surprise). This was the first day at the school. I get acquainted with my group (4 people) – a girl from Kiev, a guy from Kaunas and a guy from Riga. Quite normal people, at age 17- 26. I also met a Russian girl who is living not far from me, in the neighbor city.

Today we had Team Building course and some introdutions. Tomorrow we have Studying skills and the first Math lecture.

The First Time

We had sex for the first time. And I really liked it!

Waiting… Loading…

Waiting for A.D.’s call to get out to the sea and for tomorrow evening to meet M.T. Shit, I will have [great - at least I hope so] sex. So here I come.. Or… Here I cum.. 

“I don’t cum, better watch TV” – roman Bobo.

P.s. I am very careful with eating for the second (or third?) day so that I am not too fat. How sick is that??

A Romantic Afternoon

It was a sweet afternoon today with A.D. I went to GA, to s.st. where J. lives and we were eating ice-cream, which I took from my home, there. Then J. came, we had a short conversation, I gave him his jeans and two shirts that I washed at home. I also saw his documents, a grade transcript from the school, documents from the bank. Yesterday he gave documents in the school, he will be in 10th grade. And he also discovered that the bank (SWE) doesn’t want him to be their client anymore so he has opened a new account. His marks were like 5 and 6, 4 in math, 6 in sports, 7 in music. I thought they would be better, but they are as they are. I also found out he has given my telephone number in the bank as he has not got telephone at the moment and he has written mine. And today he wanted to open a sms bank from my number, but I didn’t allow him to. I was kinda shocked about this fact. Later we went to the sea, but before that he wanted to show me a mountain in a forest, a place where it is possible to see the sea. So we went there, we both had flip-flops, but somehow we managed to get in that mountain. And then we went to the sea. We accidentally came to the place where we met 17.06 for the first time. There was a tree lying there. It was raining a little bit, so we put my bag under the tree. He wanted to go swimming and I knew I want it as well, I just have to get him away so that I can put on my swimming suit. So he went naked and I wanted to go without bra, but I decided to have it. I went it, the water was quite cold, but still ok. I swam there, we came together. We kissed, he hold me up, my legs around his waist. We were kissing, he was kissing my breasts and it all felt so wild. It was very very wild and romantic and if I didn’t have mr, I could have had sex with him right there in the sea. Well, but I really want it to be unforgettable in the first time as this is something so special for him. Afterwards we were sitting on the tree, eating peaches I took from home, kissing, talking. The rain started again so we decided to go to J. On our way he said he adored me. One day he says one thing and another day he says smth else. Hmmm… We went to J., spoke there, kissed, read a book and listened to the music from my ipod. J. came, they smoked, had a few laughs. We kissed again, he kissed my breasts (I totally love it) and I knew I was absolutely wet. I thought I could probably play with myself, but decided not to. He wanted me so much.. I said I had to go and he came till the fence and I went home by bicycle. It was raining quite heavily, but I wanted to go as parents were at home and I also had to eat smth. My bat was totally wet as I came home and my Salomon bag was with dirt.

Fuck, something shakes inside of me… He was so sweet, caring and tender today. I loved it so much. It was a very romantic evening despite the rain. He turned me on so much. Ah. I love his body, his smell and hands that are holding me so close. The picture is unclear when he is kissing me… And my mind just blows away…

God Save the Stupid

Under my table there is a bloody jacket in a bowl full of water. Last night A.D. was a hero. At the end he looked like a drunk killer with blood all over.

Oh, God

God, help them stop drinking and start a better life. Help them, they don’t know what they are doing.

Sweet

Last days has been crazy. This evening we went to the sea in Garu. with A.D. and had a nice evening together. We were sitting there, talking, kissing, touching each other. Speaking about what he likes in sex and what i could show him. Some people were walking with a dog or smth. The evening was sunny, but the wind was blowing, so we went deeper in the forest, in the dunes. We were both with bicycles (he borrowed one from K.). M. was calling while we were there and I was answering. I was laughing. I said You don’t like me? Why do you don’t like me? He said You know why! Ha. I hope he didn’t mean anything particularly. I really enjoyed the evening and when I came home, I watched TV a bit with my parents and then A.D. wrote me to come in Skype. So we had a short chat, a sweet one.

P.s. While coming home, I saw a dead badger on the road..

The Sea

i have been to the sea 4 previous days from Monday, one of the times I was in Garc., all the others in Garu. But today I am not going anywhere as my but hurts, it is still very hot outside and my skin needs to relax from all this.

One More Divorce?

It seems my friend’s S.’s relationship (almost two years!) is coming to an end. I first realized it when I met them right after my travel to France. That was in 28.05. I didn’t want to say that to her, but today in our conversation she said he acts strange, he has said smth about proposing D.R., whom he has had smth with or smth like that. I found it out when I met A.S., my best friend in March and she was also there and she said smth about that. She was also surprised about the fact that they were still together. So smth is going on…

We were laughing with my friend M. that in August we will have to make crazy party just as it was two years ago. Three of us will be single again (probably). Only this time she wants our party to be more positive. No way! I want it to be even more crazy!

What’s Wrong?

I have found out something is not ok with me. Do I really have some kind of disease? I am not sure if it is because of bicycling everyday and the hot weather or because of R. or M.T.??? That was in March! A long time has passed! I would need to go to a doctor, but I don’t have money for that. I am a little bit scared. I also know that my body is weak these days as my birthday is coming and it’s just natural that way.

The Phone Call…

R. has called my dad!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t remember last time I had been so angry.

Today and This Week

I have been to the sea 4 days in a row. I am going to Garu (by bicycle). It is very hot outside, but I like this sport and my skin is also little bit browner.  And in the evening we are going to a strange ball with my parents, to Pr. and then to our flat in V. It’s S.’s birthday, but I am not going as I will be away… And I also don’t have money for that. Unfortunately.

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